breathe me

I have changed so much in the past three weeks. I have a new sense of being. I have new desires, hopes, and dreams. For the first time in- I don't even remember how long- I was completely alone today and enjoyed it more than anything. I didn't have to talk to anyone. I didn't have to get dressed, put any makeup on, or drive my car to meet anyone.
I could never understand how anyone could just "need a day". I understand it now. It feels good. It feels really good. I have been in this zone today and I did a lot of deep thinking. I thought about the past, and how incredibly happy I am that it is all behind me now. I thought about wasted time and my wasted efforts. I have always lived with a "no regrets" type of philosophy, but looking back today I am kinda pissed off that my time was wasted. Wasted on a immature sack of shit that had nothing better to do with his life than ruin mine. I am over it though. I really am. I don't want to dwell on the past anymore, and over the past few weeks I have been able to do just that.
I am ridiculously happy with the present. I love my job. I can't stop talking about it. I am in a great place right now at work. I have amazing students, and my fervor for teaching is at an all time high. I'm working on my masters degree. This is where I have found my drive for more. I know that I can do it, and I want to keep pushing through.
I've been going to yoga. What an incredible feeling that is! I love having 90 minutes devoted out of my day to just myself and my well-being.
As far as my future, I am so excited about what's to come. I can't wait. I'm so excited to see how the rest of my life ends up. I haven't felt this happy with just being me in so long. So, if you were wondering about how I was doing lately, just know that I'm happy. So incredibly fucking happy. No, there's no new boy I'm dating.... It's just me. I've finally gotten here, and it's fucking perfect.